i missing it already

hahahaha.. last nite after the end of the show and when the tech fellas were taking the whole set down. i somewhat had this sad feeling in me.. where i feel a doubt in me that could i actually survive the next 1 year or so without the lights shinning down on me.. the countless rehersals.. something that i am used to just ended yesterday.. no ended is not the right term to use as i am not ending anything yet what i am doing is just to put it on hold.. could i take that hold for the time being or would i break down.. last nite was a confirmation for me that the stage is my playground.. but then the reality of life itself would not permit me to linger to long on the see saw and swings...it is a harsh reality but then it is a reality that i would have to live with. but one thing that came out of the whole show is that sooths my heart is that i can be sure that the stage is left in good hands and i hope with the combination that we have now my playground will one day flourish and that more children like me would be able to play there at the same in peace. insyallah.......