Wednesday, January 23, 2008

im in the wrong

alrite, im not happy for this or am i ok with it.. actually i am really uncomfortable with how i am feeling now.. i have done someone wrong.. yes i have.. im not gonna mention names but i have and its not a good feeling..
i have fallen into that old habit that i had before and by all means why do i have to back track when everything is just going soo well... why do i fall back into this web that swallows me in fully? i did not mean to do it on purpose... it just happens .. old habits are hard to get rid of i guess but that is not an excuse for me to go on..
im sorry and i will try my level best to rectify this matter as fast and as soon as i could and please please do not let me fall back on this habit again..

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Anonymous said...

Always There For Her Son

by N. Puspa Malar

When Zainah Hassan’s son was five years old, she quit her full-time job to stay home to take care of the little boy. “I wanted to be with my son, Zahamin Baki Zainal, during his growing up years,” said Zainah, who was previously working as a cook in a company. “I wanted to see my son going to school and to make sure I was there to attend to his studies,” she added.

About a year after Zainah became a full-time homemaker, she realised that she could start a homebased business since she had ample free time after completing her household chores. She took up her husband’s suggestion and set up a small stall just outside their corner-lot house in Taman Tun Aminah, Johor Bharu, selling nasi lemak, lontong and meehoon (traditional Malay dishes) for breakfast.

“Most of my customers were factory workers and they suggested that I cook a variety of dishes with rice for their lunch. Why not? I thought,” said Zainah. Since she finished selling breakfast at 9 am, she began cooking lunch for the afternoon crowd.

That was the starting point of her homebased food business. Her food stall was becoming so popular that customers began approaching her to cater for functions, children’s parties and traditional feasts. “They kept coming back for my nasi beriani (traditional rice preparation) and Malay cakes.”

Zainah, 58, considered herself to have been very lucky as her husband was very supportive of her work. Her husband was a part-time artist who used to sell his paintings to the New Zealand Army in Singapore. “He used to help me with my work and take care of our son whenever I was busy with the food preparation,” she said, when reminiscing about her husband who suddenly passed away six years ago.

Seeing his mother brooding at home, Zahamin suggested that she return to her kitchen to continue her food business. “My son gave me the moral support and told me that I should put the past behind and continue my work.” And this, she did.

Two years later, Zainah’s son wanted to go to Kuala Lumpur to further his studies. Although Zahamin was independent enough to live and study in the big city on his own, he wanted his mother to accompany him. “Since he wanted me to be in Kuala Lumpur with him, I couldn’t say no.”

Moving to Kuala Lumpur didn’t stop Zainah from continuing with her catering business. Although it was on a small scale, her goodies became popular among neighbours and friends.

This courageous woman has no regrets about working from home. Recalling the earlier days when her husband passed away and the responsibility of raising their only son fell on her shoulders, she said, “I’m glad that I made the right choice of working from home as I have always been there for my son.”