i cant sleep

it is a very warm night(i wonder why in the first place did i buy that warm comforter in ikea for) even the aircon aint doin it right.....
it does not help with me being used to turning in at 4am or 6am in the blinking morning for the past god knows month...i have work to work 2morow and i can sleep(i so wish that this house has a bath tub that i could just run a nice bath and put my sleep into lala land)...
i kinda realized for the past year or so that i started to blog, most of my entries are just bout me bitching on life and certain incidents that happens to me.. i envy people who could actually post really good mind boggling articles or topics on their blogs.. i mean i thank the al mighty that i dont specify the meatballs i had for lunch on my blog or even the event of me shaving my pubes on the site but just in general things that i cant rant in life to other people and hoping that i dont sound self indulgence like... hummm....
i'll be home alone for the weekend as family is heading down south for a couple of days and i have a few things that i need to sort out, theres the coffin aint big enough, theres the cloudbreak exchange interview(please god i really want london) and of course the inconvinient truth( did i spell that right) and i shall try to see how will i balance all this on the budget that i have currently..hahahahahahaha.. i wonder how sasha is doing now that nik is in hawaii.. good luck babes..
see its still just bout me.. and nothing else(i so hope that i dont sound like this in real life coz then people would think or have already think that i am soo into me) i know its not a crime or anything but i just feel like its a habit that i have to kick... the initial idea of having this blog in the first place is to share with this world bout things that i'm concern about(and yes al-gore beat me to it damn those americans hahahahahahaha) and yet the only thing that came out from the tapping of my fingers on my keyboard is just plain complaints and bitching on how life has been dealing me a bad deck and ruining my grand plans(hey i could have been among the two that they sent over to russia for the space program k)....
huhhhhhhh.. maybe i should just try... but i wont want to come across as trying to sound smart while in real life i'm not that smart( its the weirdest and the stupidest thing a person can do) they say that you should write bout something that is close to your heart. then i guess my frens this is whats close to my heart.. or maybe infact i am just a sad case that does not have anyone to rant my life to....