its 6:52am and i can't sleep

ive been awake on the net since about 4am or so.. well might not be an unusual scenario.. but the subject matter which i Googled for is some what new to me... Gastroenterologist... wowww that's a mouthful infact it took me just about a good couple of minutes to decide whether or not to post this blog... i finally made up my mind that i need to.. as this would be the only small haven that exist for me to keep my little or non existence of sanity.
why i googled this topic?? well let me just save you from the chronoligical run of incidents.. i have been suffering from a bad deal of gastric problems or in a more scientifical medical term GERD. what is GERD? Gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD) is a more serious form of gastroesophageal reflux (GER). in a more lay men term means heart burns, reflux, gas in the tummy all blend into one. and of past has been get bad. at first gastric issues does not seem scary.. but lets not kid ourselves.. one knows their own body system better than others would..

Chronic GERD that is untreated can cause serious complications. Inflammation of the esophagus from refluxed stomach acid can damage the lining and cause bleeding or ulcers—also called esophagitis. Scars from tissue damage can lead to strictures—narrowing of the esophagus—that make swallowing difficult. Some people develop Barrett’s esophagus, in which cells in the esophageal lining take on an abnormal shape and color. Over time, the cells can lead to esophageal cancer, which is often fatal..

hahahahahaha bordering on insanity im telling myself am i really gonna go with this or is this just one of my drama moments ... how at this point i wish it is...

in order to know if this is really what i am facing .. a couple of test would need to be carried out.. luck be on my side i have yet to take those test.. i might just be scaring myself.. oh god it is scary.. as i am typing away the discomfort in my tummy is just to close for comfort.. subhanallah..

this i guess is my wake up call.. i need to do this.. i am scared...

i need to know to proceed ... please make me strong.....

i have taken upon me responsibilities and quest that i want to fight on for... my work, my life, my family.... going green, completing those castles in the sky with my kor, giving my mom a comfortable lifestyle.. these things come first... they do.. they do.