bye bye 3cm.. i'll miss you

jam lar jam !!!!
the leather belt that is called dinner
hah!! nie kene mandi bawah jambatan ngn kambing jantan nie!!
the 3cm gang (kyra, simone, me, linda, chris, jasmine, mizul,willem, yok wan,karen, farah)


It was pretty jam driving down to kl tonight for the 3cm farewell dinner (huhuhuhu).. I had to send abang og to work first then from KLIA I drove to GLOMAC for auditions, I hope I get it although I know its tough as I am going against the likes of Awal and the rest(I know I am BAKI ZAINAL tapi yelah im not there yet kan) then without thinking twice I drove down to concord hard rock for dinner(its Friday KL is famous for its jam at this moment and it rained so you guys would know how much I love 3CM that I drove down without thinking twice)
I reached there early( making up for happy hour lar nampaknya) before the gang arrived.. nampaknya fasha sandha was celebrating her birthday too Happy Birthday Fasha..
The gang arrived, simone just got back from Bangkok from spending some time with Ben.. (simone brought gifts yeah yeah) dinner started with me ordering the NY strip steak(which tasted like rubber sorry guys but food sucked!!)
It was an interesting night with many encounters, Linda doing her bomoh act in menilik nasib ( hah nie cucu kena mandi bawah jambatan ngn sekor kambing jantan) hahahaha.. trying to convert will in circumcising and of course santa clause with his 5 pinoy maids hahahaha.. lets not be visual here but above all the night ended on a high note with everybody being all emo and stuff but above all I love this team and I wish all of you guys the best in life and the works.. Linda jangan lupa ya jimmy choo boots to work next week!! Take care guys I love you..

Amins birthday!!

yumm yumm ice-cream cake
birthday boy stinky
stinky and me
alisya with amins present
smurfet


Kids birthdays has always been hectic, noisy, stressful, sticky and messy(wait that sounds more like sex than a birthday party).. last night was stinky’s birthday, so we kinda gathered the family around and had a small do among us with of course unlimited amount of yummy food(dah namanya keluarga baki Zainal mestilar makan best) and it kinda explaines why I am blogging this a day later hahahahahaha
the day started on a very high note with me attending an audition in filmscape(the same people who brought you cinta and manjalara) and I don’t want to jingx it but then I felt that it might be a positive outcome.. insyaallah.. even so I came across the two numskulls(I wont mention names, their names urks me in so many ways than one) and I had the 5 mins of pulputation and blood rising to my head it didn’t in any ways was gonna bring me down.. I was determined to be happy and stressful in hunting down stinky’s birthday present..he wanted a wrist band from either nike or adidas the dude is 6 years old how in the name of god can I find one that would be able to fit his little small arms? Hahahaha but I guess god wanted to make me super uncle so I came across one that is for adults but could fit his little arms hahahahaha..
besides the wrist band I was in so many ways determined to get him Green Eggs and Ham(the book) so while I was in borders hunting down the said book I came across and activity book on The Spiderwick. And without thinking twice I picked it up and knew that stinky was gonna worship me for that(hey its one of those moments that you know you would be immortalized next to Ben 10 and Pokemon) and of course I got myself a word puzzle book that was on bargain( hahaha stop trying to justify yourself baki Zainal)
anyways the party went smooth and I was uberly touched by how my nephew reacted towards getting his gift and how he brim with thank yous and hugs.. I love stinky in fact I love all of them.. the night ended with a whole vanilla ice cream cake, laughters, pictures and warmth.. I love my family and while I write about it I realized how important their laughter and smiles are to me.. thank you..

SAMAN 300

Okay, I mengantuk yang teramat but then I feel that I have to blog now sebelum I get really sleepy or much worse I get bored or distracted by the tv or something else than I would be soo curang towards my dear friend the blog…
Today started a bit funny tapi pada masa yang sama weird.. sebabnya I got a wake up call from my brother ajaking me to buy wooden blinds but I ended up at the police station..
Yes you heard it right I was at the police station in section 11 shah alam to pay my saman..( you guys know the one that I was involved in a crash)well that costed me 300 but then macam puas hati gie bayar saman tue coz the police people were soo nice and polite and all that it was really a simple fast affair. It only took me not more than 5 mins to inquire and pay up the 300.. wow taniah kepada polis polis di balai polis seksyen 11 shah alam khidmat mu sentiasa dikenang..
Then after a hearty meal and photo taking session(sebelum tue kenelar straightkan rambut dulu dah kata nanti kat lessen tue kene lar hansem) I was off to the JPJ in good old god forsaken Padang Jawa (why do they do that.. chuck all these devoted government workers who do their job faithfully so that we would benefit from it.. ok ok that’s a bit too much lyrical waxing there) and after half an hours wait for my turn (between 71 people in between) I finally managed to get my turn and with the feeling of being afraid that I would not get my new license(because well I was caught ironically without having a P stuck behind Fabians car 2 days before my P license died) well I got my new full CDL as Saban taught me the other night..
I would have to say that my encounter with the government sector today has been really good and that what ever people want to say I think its how they approach these people if at first they treat them nice then they would get the same smile back as I did I guess.. anyways I am just happy and glad that I still have license…
I have 3 auditions lined up for me this week and ohh I cannot wait to hit the beaches soon.. humm come to think of it its been at least 1 island or 1 beach a month but hey this month have yet to indulge will do so soon in april… am loving it.. yes I am.. ok have to go night night now… have an early audition to go to.. nite

Satay Celup Capitol

filling the plane with yummie peanuts
waiting for my "jet plane"
Singapore star Lyn Malek
Malacca Satay Celup
Udang!!!!!


An early day again have to drive down to KLIA not wanting to miss the flight again hahahaha…function in johor, was just sweet although the response that I wanted was not as promising as how it might have been… I like the idea of testing a few different hair stylist(mind you they only have the honor to style my hair and not cut it that honor is still held by Nita from curlers and Nick in Malacca) but with this I get to see different hair styles being played on to me and seeing if I am able in carrying it off.. I liked my hair in jb this time… I really do..
Ohh ohh ohh I don’t remember if I kind of wrote it down or not but then, I am not the line of wanting to look young thus I am trying to dress younger and follow suit with the trend.. so while I was in jb I bought those leather things that the youngsters these days wear on their wrist.. although the process of purchasing it was funny but then lets leave that for another day…
Finished show I joined Fabian, saban and clement back and the guys decided to make a pit stop in Malacca for satay celup. So for the very first time ever I got to taste the ever famous Malacca Satay Celup Capitol and boy was that a fiesta.. I have never seen them so excited to see me and after a free dinner(thank you capitol) and a few pictures taken with all the staff and owner, I left the shop full and feeling a bit weary although touched that I had a fan base in the satay celup shop..hahahaha…. but what ever said the satay taste great it’s a mixture between lock lock and mee rebus with seafood minus the noodles…
After being immortalized in a non halal shop, a jpj summon and a few interesting events that went on this time around.. I would have to say that I am a happy man. No doubt of a few cock-ups here and there but the bottom line is i am thankful to HIM for being me and getting me where I am today… Thank you.

tio pepe on the dry sack

sharen , me , sue in hong kong



yum yummmmm

Its been an interesting nite, yeah my frens and I once again traveled out and this time around we had dinner in brazil and chilled in hong kong ( where else in the world would you find a drink called Tio pepe) hahahaha.. ahh the time spent with these girls are just priceless
I guess in many ways than one we were rekindling time that we spent and grew together, a feeling that had became strange but because of its familiarity has once again felt right.. we cant believe how we have actually known each other for more than 10 years…
I love these people, there are only a few people in this world besides family that you would want to see there with you at times of pain and joy and know that they would be there whatever it takes in many ways than one even so there has been scars.. but people say scars would heal and scars leaves a reminder on how strong you have grown..
Im tired flying off to jb tomorrow for a show, good nite…

lifegoeson

Okay okay,,, its been a real tiring free week humm that in many ways sounds ironic.. finally got a chance to take the back seat and relax for the time being before time catches up again with me.. caught up with shel, far, clyde and sophie for a heart wrenching rendition of karaoke time… yes yes .. I know stick to your day job baki.. it was really great catching up with friends that way.. its been well not really long but long in a way.
Waiting for hapis to send me pictures of us that he took when we were in melaka for the pancaragam road show.. had a blast, dudes funny god save his soul or should that be mine hahahaha.. I’ll upload the pictures as soon as I get them k.. promise.
Have yet to catch up with zeeka after getting news of her broken toe.. how lar zeek, ko tau bontot laki ko tue metal lagi mau tendang.. tu lar derhaka pada suami lagi.. ish ish ish..
The renovations in my room and house has kinda came to a near standstill.. not too happy with my toilet yet.. the Indonesian worker has yet to resolve the matter of the lining in the tiles.. my theory exactly you pay peanuts you get indons… hahahaha
Cant wait for the wave to start again.. huhuhu…

finding faults

its past noon now.. somewhat 4pm to be exact .. the toilet is now on a positive progress, it looks good but at the same time it looks like it came out of a 3D pic book that you need to look into to see dinosaurs and trees floating out at you.
i make the worse boyfriend really.. not that i do it on purpose but then i really have soo many things on my plate even when i am not working.. she is here in town and i am to spend time with her but i just could not make time out to do so but ironic part of it is that when i am on working time out of KL i would then manage to hang longer and be there with her,, ohh man.. how will i ever have a decent girl that would be able to live with my kind of lifestyle really..
ok i shall just have to focus and really focus and commit extra time n making this work.. really i do. do i want to make it work? why would i not want to make it work..
this is the thing baki zainal, you have to stop doing this and focus and stop finding faults.. really stop people will get hurt, you will get hurt,,... i need to loose weight,, i feel fat.

grant

uncle cheng doing us proud
im so happy for simone she found ben

ahhh... life is so beautiful in many ways than one.. feelings we once pushed way far behind our heads are now coming back into our lives.. funny.. i dont really think so...smaller things in life that we usually take for granted are now making it self clear.. im alive and will always thank HIM for the chance that HE gave me to feel being alive.

sapi

ok i know what im gonna write today would sound kinda unfair and rude in many ways towards many people but heck guys im really sorry i do have one of the best jobs a person can have and yes i am in love with K.K in many ways how could you not be its just an awesome pot of culture , lifestyle, and nature and of course one of the most coolest person i know comes from K.K. heather , we never get to meet up in kl at all but then we jet set into kuching and k.k to catch up on drinks and we are soo mild these days no more boozing none stop its more subtle.
many thins happening this week i had a good break in the ever so beautiful Sapi islands, my house is under renovation, i dont have a bed(need to find one soon), and one of my boys going thru checks to find out what is it that he has wrong with him.. i wont spell it out as well i dont want to jingx it yet. it was just heartbreaking seeing him.
but all in all i had an extrem brilliant time and want to share it with you.

OMG.. hahahahaha

oh my god.. someone just posted an article for a homebased emaker thing that my mom was intereviewd for as one of the mothers of the year some where in 2000 or so... man that article has been really long and well you could say that as all or most articles some of the information on the article has been fabricated to add upon that feel that mama had a very hard life..
i mean yeah mama went thru heartache, mama did have a hard time bringing me up and yes she does deserve the tittle of mother of the year.. my mother is not perfect but i love her to bits as she has always been there for me..
i have not seen megat for the longest time and last night i finally got to see him and it was really something catching up.. we really caught up as both of us stayed up till past 6am hahahahaha heck after drinks having mcdonalds as breakfast... i cant get over the look on megats face when i drove his new car which was a stick hahaha he could not believe his eyes..oh man i missed him.. ok fine i am sentimental and i know that this is gonna come out sounding wrong but then at the same time i really love and missed people who has seen me as me and has support me in being me and has never changed from that.. they are who i keep close.
im leaving for melaka tomorrow for a day trip as theres work in melaka. then thursday is another whirlwind in all aspect.. i dont even know if i could make it to farina's birthday do.. have a feeling that it is gonna be a big do.. and im kinda not into meeting people currently. just feel like staying in my little cocoon and not move.. yeah as megat said last night i have so many people around me and yet the voices that i hear is quite faint in many ways...
i am looking forward for kota kinabalu this weekend i am crossing my fingers and every inch that i could cross i need the beach fast and soon... but till then ill just have to chill for the time being and relax.. i love life.. thank you.

im in the wrong

alrite, im not happy for this or am i ok with it.. actually i am really uncomfortable with how i am feeling now.. i have done someone wrong.. yes i have.. im not gonna mention names but i have and its not a good feeling..
i have fallen into that old habit that i had before and by all means why do i have to back track when everything is just going soo well... why do i fall back into this web that swallows me in fully? i did not mean to do it on purpose... it just happens .. old habits are hard to get rid of i guess but that is not an excuse for me to go on..
im sorry and i will try my level best to rectify this matter as fast and as soon as i could and please please do not let me fall back on this habit again..

sms now

ok . ok i think the reason that im gonna give now for why i have not been writing is extreamly lame.. hummm.. yes coz i have no pictures to put up really.. no good ones ohh baki dont lie i have just not been taking any picture or eveidence towards my daily life since the begining of this year... why humm thats an interesting question really.. i guess at all honesty i dont really fancy the starting of this year.. for one my fate is now on the line.. hahahaha that actually sounds really really freaky.. well lets just wait maybe soon enough when i feel much better and not that fat i would start to take pictures again..
recently theres this whole huha about the interactive games and sms competitions around and how people that have not yet won and spent money on it have been complaining and claiming it to be a full fraud and scam.. ok with all honesty it threads on that very thin line really hahahaha. but yeah in the first place why why take part if you think that its a fraud and that the show is just out there to make a fast buck out of you.. and funny enough these people do not stop and learn from their mistakes.. can you believe the way they have been bitching towards the local daily.. its just sad.. grow up people... stop that..
ohh man many things have been happening around me lately and well yeah i guess theres not many that is worth me ranting on about.. but i guessas i have always looked at it lets take things slow..
im off to host battle of the bands tomorrow, then wift off to penang and later jb.. more travelling this month but yeah a man has got to do what a man has to do.. ok now you all im off to bed till then baki zainal signing off

we gettin old hummm

and shogun very filling lar!! no buffet yeah right!!
its been really long
our day trip to mauritius
sempat posing!!!

its been really sometime since i last hanged out with the girls and here i mean sharen and sue.. ohh i miss them alot really.. we had a real nice bbq dinner by the beach in "mauritius" complete with live band and the works.. i kinda forgot that comfortable feeling that i once had the feeling of never being fearful of pulling up that warm fuzzy tattered blanket... but that feeling regains its self instantly without having to do one of those straining "effective memory exercises "i miss them really" hahahah... sometimes i wonder why am i so caught up in seeking approval in many ways.. being it friendship, career and life by general.. i guess that freedome is really a good feeling.
we chat the night away catching up on bits and pieces that we have missed out in each others life and many little moments that makes it so special.. we found out and came to a conclusion that each one of us have mellowed down in many ways hahahahaha lets not get into that. the small things and prints that only friends that have been there for you thru everything would be able to see.. we made a pack to at least catch up once every month and the dates been set hahahaha.. i mean thinking about it again is just joyful that i cant stand yet to smile and savour this moment..
no matter how long and who comes and goes there would always be those that lingers longer.. standing there and closely listening even so they might seem far away.. but they have never left our side.. haaaahhhhhhhhhhhh... thank you..

little boy

Have i told you about a boy, who sits viewing the little specs that moves with the large world arounds him...

Never once dared to question or take part...

But he saw the littleness that outshined everything else...

he kept in silence.

slowly the little boy started learning how to stand..

as he rised from his once seating position, he felt the urge to speak about the littleness that he sees..

but still he kept silent.

standing tall, he hunch for he carries with him a voice that speaks itself in total darkness..

with a heavy load little boy force his feet to move..

steps taken felt like heavy stones tied to his legs, but little boy kept on walking.

i asked little boy "why" and all he could say was "thank you"

2007

2007 has been a whirlwind of drama, events, happiness, sadness, matuarity, travel, friendship lost and gain all blend into one.. weird as it might sound hahahahaha i enjoyed 2007.. its the complication of things and the whole process of getting thru this year that makes it extreamly speacial in many ways than one. the journey that i took with that one footstep into the dark room just seems logical as it is that women needs more than 20 pairs of shoes. im not gonna try to be smart of be all deep in this manner but then i guess i would try to sum things up for the year since i finally have some time..well lets see

career

wow this is one hell of a roller coaster ride that i never imagined being on board, i have always dream but in the true fashion of living it no. one could only halfly remotely imagine it.. i guess i have come along way since Teman. from celebriteen to having a talk show of my own and now slowly but surely being recognized not because of looks(plz thats hard to imagine) and just sheer talent i am now here and standing. with help from many people who believed in me and never once told me to give up. but above all i cannot and will not ignore the fact that HE has been hearing my prayers. thank you..

friendship

i once read some where "many come and go and yet those who linger in our hearts are those worth cheerishing.." 2007 brought along witrh it many beautiful souls into my life..without me realizing it they have one way or the other influence my life and choices and made me into a better person perfect i dare not claim but a better person from who i was and might have been. thank you all.

travels

i cannot believe the amount of traveling i have done this year. seeing, touching, feeling and immersing myself within the bounderies and the suroundings and being there with people that i care for and both thus care for me.. i learned alot... thank you

love

this year i found love.. not one but its many forms.. it taught me so much more than what i could imagine i am capable of accepting.. it opened up my eyes and i cheerish it.. thank you

but above all i would have to thank Him for if not He who bestow upon me all this i would not be the person that i am now thank you.. and of course to all of you who has made my 2007 special i once again say cheers and may 2008 bring more to us ... baki zainal signing off and i love you.

merry chirstmas

ice cream in winter
it is freezing cold, who's idea was this
mama and me on top of the world

ok, its been e real roller coster ride for me this couple of days.. my room mate jingx tied the knot hahaha which means among the boys i am the only one left on the hook hahahaha am i rushing i dont know infact i dont even want to think about it yet.. why? well simple as it that i guess that aint my focus yet.. hummm its been really hectic and i took a weeks break and just lazed and hanged and pigged out in jb and let loose ok no not how i really wanted too but yeah i just but a stand still and hold on the other stuff speacially when it came to work.. and i guess its really hard for me now to want to pick things up again and continue what i have left behind recently.. have many things installed for the upcoming year and many wonderful plans that i would want to make come true but at this present time and moment i could just pray and wish that it would happen soon not later hahahaha
its coming to the end for 2007... recalling it started with some bumpy notes.. well i am gonna leave the summing up of the year later since there are still a couple of days to go... till then im baki zainal signing off..

THE "WAY"
He is heavenly protected

i just came off hosting an event that is some out a disaster but ended on a high note... i guess many of us are allowed one or two of that once and a while.. doing what im doing currently and seeing the results kinda firms it up that i do enjoy what i am doing currently and see no reasons to change it yet.. infact i feel that there is no other way than just to climb up of course with HIS help... he has been there for me and i thank you... man i need to go to the gym... auditions are just a couple of days away. i am soon gonna start adding on things that i have written and all that i have compiled.. maybe one day a book. who knows? but for now i shall just share it with u.

im back

Man, who says thai guys are small?
morning in berinchang
ahoy!! me captain..

ok.. i know i know i have sinned for not even taking the consideration or even the initiative of writing anything in here...honestly besides not having the time to be honest i didnt have the need or urge... is it becoz i am more happy with meself and life or is it becoz i am just fazed out by the idea of bitching to an empty page who would not talk back? oh please talking bout no feedback we humans are soo much more advanced and clever in that field arent we i should know hahahaha..
i guess it would have to be that i have learned to take things to stride... spend time and effort on towards things and people that matters and not drain myself towards negetive fields and bodies...im really supprise to upon taking such steps and commitment..hahahaha.. evident enough by the 3 pictures above that potrays the simple and short timescape of a short visit of baki zainal's life..i shall be versitile.. i shall shine and i shall out beat .. look out world...

Crash...

man oh man ... this week has been a very bad week.. first i kinda lost a job ... then i lost a parking ticket which i then found again in the car... and tonite kinda topped the cherry on the surface.. i met up with an accident.. yes, i crashed into another car...ok, 1st of all i would have to say that its not really my fault as 1. i was not on the phone
2i was not speeding,
3, i was focused
what happened was that 3 cars infront of me went on emergency break as they were coming down a slop and i was right behind the last car. then after breaking the car slided down the slop and yes i bangged the car infront of me.. only that the car infront of me was not damaged as he only has like a few calar here but the car that i was driving which was abg ein's car kinda really am in bad condition as half of the front part was just smashed into half.. yes.. that was how it was..
Far and clyde came to my rescue before mama and kak anja arrived and they saw me thru the whole making of the police report and then to the workshop and all.. thanks guys . and so now i kinda like wondering is it a signal from Him did i do something wrong which i think i did... but what ever it is i am going to take it as a warning from Him that i should not just take His gifts for granted and be thankful and show Him my gratitude.. ok guys thats enough for tonight i need to calm myself i shall see you all soon. thanks ya.

odd feel

ok i dont know why am i feeling this way or like why even so am i doing this... today i got some bad news bot some stuff relating to celebriteens.. now i know i should not be fazed about it but yeah it kinda got me into thinking if that moment is actually arriving and if that its means that i used up my time... humm ok that sounds odd and confusing.. anyways recently it has kinda sorta been a slow month for me.. yes i know both geetha and diana are doing their exstream level best to get me out there... ohh by the way im now officially a celebrity fitness member thanks to Geet hurray and i have been going to the gym like every single day coz i no longer want to give people out there a chance to hurt myself esteem... hazlin pointed out my self worth i and i am not going to compromise on that matter anymore... but i still cant help yet to feel insecure at certain times... climbing these stairs alone is hard and lonely and yeah i mean i have not been completely out of job yet.. but the thing is that i dont really feel the safety net being there and i dont like this empty feeling of being on the edge of danger... i know i know it does not help yet to feel insecure... jesus i think i just needed to bitch i guess... there are certain habits that i have to quit and i am sure that i have to do that soon... arghhh i hate myself for not being strong... he gave me this chance and why the fuck am i fucking it up.... i have to be strong... i have too.. today will be my last draw.. yes i cant keep saying it and not doing it.. today shall be my last draw..i need to make this ramadan meaningful.... please help me today shall be my last draw...

more pictures

me in the pool after being thrown in by the kids
jue and me hosting on stage i love my baju
jue, shikin and me back stage
yeah its dunking time
wendy, mee rong, jia kang, ah tuck and me just chilling

yeah, finally more pictures. thank you chris. yup we had soo much fun at the grand finals... i loved my top from philosophy and jue's outfit comes from salabianca. thank you guys... then of course after the finals we had to have a nice closing for the whole competition for the kids so event plus a.k.a Mr Alan Thoo came with organized a nice "wet" afternoon for the kids and us and yes they threw me into the pool... yup dont need a rocket scientist to figure that bit out. . we all got wet ... ahhh 1 week with no work... humm enjoying time off but at the same time the workerholic in me craves to work and craves to earn more hahahahahaha not my fault that one of my weaknesses is of course greed. but yeah gonna try my level best to chill bit more and then roughly next week another power packed week to comeok all i am now gonna take a nice nap as i have to attend the preview for in 1957 MERDEKA!! MERDEKA!! MERDEKA!!!

long time no see

sarawak cultural village post rainforest music fest

the munchkins sending me off to the airport
farins wedding in johor recently picture of ma and me
sri and me clubbing in penang
the fairy wells or the 7 wells in langkawi

my oh my look how time flies .. and yes i know i have sinned as i have not post anything on this page for like ages and ages long hahahahaha yes i have finally found my breathing space for the time being...i cant count how lucky i am being able to capture priceless moments and travel to places that i never would have imagined i would step on and see things and experience life on a level that is just soo alive.... the amount of points that i have accumulate on my enrich card is just like wow and all that was just done within the 3 months that i have been in DCT ..the aknowlagement ... someone once told me that i have to know myself worth and it felt strange and akward at first coz it felt as if i was putting on airs but then i came to realise that its not airs bbut that is how much i am worth and why i shouldnt at anytime look down on myself anymore...i believe that why HE has always been there for me is to show me what i am really worth ... thank you.... these 3 months would always be with me ... i am slowing my pace for the time being as i believe that HE has something bigger installed for me thus i shall wait and see... ok guys i am gonna take a rest now and shall try to catch up with you all soon..

baki zainal